Ok, now please I need serious answers here.
I have been with my boyfriend for the past 2 1/2 years, and he has an older brother and he has a girl friend who has also been around for a while now. Well, when I first met her, she was pregnant, but now she's lost all of her weight and it really depresses me (because I've been working out so hard for the past few months, and she didn't even try to lose weight and she's skinnier than me). She has the kind of job that I want, she goes to college, she lives on her own with my boyfriend's brother, has a cute baby, has a really happy outgoing personality, beautiful hair, beautiful smile, just everything.
Well, I'm not trying to sound vain, but I find that I am a pretty woman too. Although for some reason, every time I get around her, I just feel worthless. I have been out of a job forever and can't find one, I'm not going to college or anything because I don't know what to go for, and she is nice and outgoing like I want to be, but I'm too shy, even after 2 1/2 years. I don't understand why I get like this around her. And every time when my boyfriend says he's going over there (even though he's hanging out with his brother) it really irritates me and bothers me that he's over there without me. How can I get past this and learn to accept that she's apart of the family now?
Can someone please help me, and give me some tips or a link or a book or something. I'm literally driving myself insane.
